I talked to Trevor about 1 Corinthians 7:10,11 today. It had really confused me, because that passage seemed to fly in the face of God's character, but he explained it, and it was good. It isn't a passage to be taken literally, but put into context with what was going on in the church at the time. In nonsaved couples who were married, a spouse would be saved, and believe that their unsaved spouse was defiling their body, so they would divorce and marry a saved person. Which was causing a lot of unnecessary grief and pain. Which is why Paul was saying that you can't divorce someone just to marry someone else. In chapter 7, he goes off on how you don't have to divorce an unsaved spouse, because they don't defile you. You should do your best to remain married and what not. But God can redeem the past. Divorce isn't so big that He can do nothing. And if you are divorced, you can marry again, in my interpretation, but you can't divorce for the reason of wanting a newer model.

I'm not going to my discipleship group tonight. Kim and I are going to visit Jonathan's discipleship group. I think Kim's playing the guitar for it or something. At any rate, it will surely be interesting. I have been having a lot of difficulty with this one dude in my church, who we'll call Josh boy, and am not interested in coming to group until he starts leaving me alone. He's very convinced that I'm going to be the one he marries, and as I am going out with Kim, and he knows that Kim and I are very serious, he's becoming more and more bound and determined to make me love him before I end up marrying Kim. It's very annoying.

Oi vei. Anyways, this is enough complaining from me. God is good.

~mildinsanity:out

It's been way too long since I've updated. I am so, so sorry... Been really flippin' busy, and updating hasn't really been a priority.

As of Valentine's, Kim and I have been officially going out. Mom and Dad had invited him over for Valentine's dinner, and he and I asked if it was alright if we started officially dating. Mom and Dad literally leapt at the chance to say yes. They'd been waiting for several months for us to finally ask them permission.

Kim is going to be leaving for basic training May 26th. He's a soldier in the Army National Guard now, and he'll be gone at basic training from May 26th to mid-November. So it'll be a lonely summer for me. But it will give me oppurtunity to work my tail off in school and work, so that I can be graduated from high school as soon as possible, and so that I can afford some of the things that are being planned... Like my wedding.

Kim hasn't officially proposed to me yet, but it's very much understood that he and I are going to get married. Next year, after I turn eighteen. It might be as early as March, it might be as late as July. We'll see. Early? Mm. I don't think so. I think it's right on time. Kim and I have both always felt that the dating part of a relationship should be the shortest part of a relationship, because it's only a doorway into temptation, and having to struggle against it. Besides, you should know enough about the person from being friends with them before dating. And I've always felt that I was going to get married at 18, 19, and not move out of my parent's house until I get married.

I don't think I'll be going to college, but that's never really been a priority for me. But I do think I want to stay here locally. I'm getting involved in the children's ministry at the Vineyard again, even moreso than before.

The Vineyard's children ministry has not been the same since the Rockin' V left with Ranger Bud. It suffered a big blow with that. Ranger Bud really, really misses having something like the Rockin' V going on. And a mission company thing has wanted to do a TV show of Live at the Rockin' V for a while. So, we're bringing the Rockin' V back. It'll help the children's ministry, it'll give Ranger Bud what he's been missing, and it'll provide the mission company thing with a place to film the show. It's good all around. I've been given a part in the thing, as Betty Backpacker. She's kinda like the Krissy the Kid of old, but not at all. I talked to Mr. Vance today (children's ministry pastor) about it, and it looks like they're going to have Betty Backpacker be Ranger Bud's teammate and take on the 4th-6th graders, while Ranger Bud takes on the kindergarten-3rd graders. Which will be awesome. I'm going to be more involved with Wilderness Camp, and will probably have random appearances at hte 4th-6th graders Wednesday night thing-a-ma-bobs, and what not. I'll be really into the outdoors activities, like rock climbing, cliff diving, backpacking, white water rafting, etc. It'll be tight.

Mr. Vance hopes that I'll have my own TV show in a year or so... So I might be a TV star after all. Heh. We'll see how that goes.

In other news, I'm working at a movie theater now. I was working in concessions, but they've moved me out of concessions and onto floor. Which means I'll be cleaning up everything, like theaters, the lobby, and bathrooms. Yay. Heh. Monday was my last day in concessions. Which makes me sad, because I love concessions, even though I go home smelling like popcorn.

I'm going to be learning to drive here pretty soon. It's come to the point where it's an absolute necessity. So yah... I'll be driving here purty soon. Scary, eh?

Umm... Not much else to update right now. At least, I can't think of anything else. Things have changed a lot for me, but I don't really want to go into all that right now. I'll update soon.

~mildinsanity:out

Today is my birthday. I'm 17 now, and everyone is making a big deal about it. I don't see it as something to be made a big deal about. Tori gave me a lot of clothes... But other than that, I haven't really gotten anything. It's as I hoped. I didn't tell people about my birthday for that reason, partially. I don't like them going through all the trouble of getting me birthday presents and what not, you know?

Mm. Not much to update on...

~mildinsanity:out

John told me today that he's happy for me, because he has learned that this thing between me and Kim is a mutual thing. He claims still that I love Kim, but I don't think I'm at that point yet. Mayhaps somewhere between like and love. But not love yet. At any rate, he's very much convinced that Kim loves me, and is always going off on that... I'm like, meh.

Other news does not amount to much, for there is not all that much going on in my life. I apologize for being so mushy lately.

~mildinsanity:out